Total Freak-Out

So, we own a house in IL that we painstakingly shovel money out to every month. On top of that are currently some large maintenance issues that are gonna cost a lot to fix. Things like, new carpet in the whole house, painting the entire exterior trim (and replacing some trims b/c the property management co didn't paint it like we asked), etc. While thinking about that and some other minor monthly expenses that are adding up, my body and spirit began a total freak-out.
I began fanning under my arms, wiping sweat beads from my brow, and deep breathes to cool and calm down. My heart is racing, and brain pumping out a zillion thoughts per second on finances. "Great Amy, where are you going with this"........

I know that our sustenance for living does NOT come from Ethicon Endo Surgery. Luckily, I personally know the One who provides all things for us. Luckily, we are B.F.F. Luckily He cares about me more than I care about myself. And luckily, He is not limited by financial restraints. It is certainly not my faith in human beings to take comfort for provision. God's word is very black and white about how much He will take care and provide for us. So with that, I know that I can take a breath, and write out the checks one at a time. It makes me feel so good to fall back into the capable hands of God and rest and tell Him how much I love Him. Not just for what He's gonna do, but for Who He is and what He's already done. Then I hit my knees and thank God for His provision. I've never gone hungry. I'm actually a little tubby! Thanks for the surplus! I've never slept a night on the street. He's always been there, He's always faithful, and He's growing me. In uncomfortable ways, but never the less I'm so thankful for the growth and care that He takes of me.

He is providing for us and I pray providing food and nourishment and Godly guidance for our birthmom and baby. May they be richly blessed on this day.

Refocusing on Him puts my body back in line with where God wants it. Thank You Dad!